Fun night, last night!!

It was funny nite yesterday.... it was as usual a boring sunday evening n I was expecting this friend of my so that we can complete the homework for one of this classes that I'm taking this summer.....so she finally came in the evening...and then we sat down thinking that we should be able to complete the homework in about 2 hrs....oh we wish that was true..

As we gradually started to proceed with our homework....my roommate joined us, as she too is the same class but her submission was due a week later but uh well...all three of us sat down and started with the homework...we started around 5:00 pm and she left at 12:00 am...and in those 7 hrs all we did was talking and talking...but in between we also shifted our attention to the homework that was due in 2 days and a week for my roommate!! :)

so far we were doing good...bt as we were approaching towards the end of the homework.....suddenly all us were getting more serious towards the work and there was pin - drop silence for some time....then my friend she asked me to verify wheather the codes that she did were correct or not....n so i did and the next moment we know all 3 of us were shouting and screaming and laughing....we trying to verify and all three of us were getting different solutions....

finally we did got the solution on which all 3 of us agreed on....but the time we were taking to agree on one solution was so hilarious and energetic at the same time...I am sure that our neighbours would definately had been cursing us for being so loud in the middle of the night!! But it was definately a fun night...

A wound that would never heal....

Its just so hard sometimes to let go of things or should I say times which I've cherised all my life.. and those cherised times....they were shared with some of the closest people that I "had" in my life....and now I don't have them anymore!!

Its so hard to let go of the past.....Why does it has to be so hard?? Recently it is happening to me that I am loosing all the people I was close to...the "people" who I always referred to as my "best friends" and now they are just "people"....they have started drifting away from me...leaving me all by myself....."alone" I guess and I hate to say that I dont like it at all.... all my life I've always been this blithe natured girl...always had my best friends with me....uhhhh that was all past, the presents only holds me alone....and now I'm even scared more of loosing them all and you know what I dont like this....I don't want things to change...I've never changed for anyone...but why did they changed?? I agree that priorities change....mine changed to....not everyday is same and time changes......but that doesnt mean that even the strongest relationships change!!

Why is it so hard to let it all go????? I dont want that I should be everyone's priority or I should be the center of attraction for everything!! All I am asking for is just my friends back....is it so much to ask for?? All I am asking for is my life back?? Is it so hard to get it back???Is it so hard to get back the people you love the most, the people who ae your friends and who make you what you are?? I dont want to be the one to let it all go.....I dont want to be alone....I hate being alone....Its .......Its so uhhh hard..Its ............It is so empty.....I dont like emptiness .....It'll kill me and as a matter of fact it is killing me slowly.......