Veni ... Vedi... Vici. .... He Came ... He Saw... He Conquered ......He came after a long time ... a time so long.... a feeling so forgotten ..he brought them all back ... and I never saw them surfacing back in me... I was happy, happy the way I was living ... with no real expectations from life or from love .... I was happily living in my own fantasies and had successfully managed to convince myself that there is no such thing as perfect love ... and no such things as "soul mates" exists .... until that unforgettable night, a night I'll never be able to forget for the rest of my life ... He came and made me realize that once again I was wrong ... wrong in not believing in what really made me who I was ... not believing in LOVE.......How could I not believe in love .. me... who has been always all about love ... just a small thought of being in love would make me fall in love with love .... :-)
I had came back to my home after a long journey from home ... and was staying over my buddy's place for a week .... and on the second day of my stay at her place... we talked ... talked for the first time .... The initial talks were rather funny .. yet they were endless ... and I was given a nick name at the spot ... Chatter Box (...also fondly called by some of my other closed ones)...my very first conversation with him lasted for 6 hours .... we "chatted" while the whole world around us were happily engaged in their own fantasies .. and I had not in my wildest dreams would have ever imagined what I was up against .. :-) As much as I loved talking, so did he and there were no barriers, no boundaries to our conversations ... and a day turned into days ....and I never noticed that my favorite part of the day was the time when we talked.... I would eagerly wait for that time of the day so that we could talk .. Eventually I started realizing that what was happening to me was not very different from my fantasies .. I was falling in love again ...... I was smiling when no one around me was ...... I was humming when everyone was busy working ..... the mornings brought happiness and the evenings were eagerly awaited .. my colleagues started noticing the ever present mysterious smile on my face ... some also said that I was looking more prettier day by day and there was a unmatched glow on my face ... and so did my buddy !!! I loved listening to lovey dovey mushy mushy songs ... and was laughing out loud even on the silliest jokes ... I knew what was happening to me .... I knew where love was taking me ... and I felt it ... I felt different ... for the first time it felt real ... for the first time there was immense intensity in it .. it was gigantic, enormous!! .. It was what I've been waiting for all my life .. I wanted to fly in the deep sea ..... and swim like a free bird in the skies .... everyone tried stopping me from falling for it .. but I was madly in Love with LOVE .... for the first time something felt so real .... as real as the first drop of rain in the desert .... as real as the first drop of morning dew.... but what I ignored to notice was that my reality was short lived like the morning dew and the drop of rain in the desert ... in my madness I forgot to notice that I can never have him and will never come back, even though I felt we were soul mates, we can never be together... forgot to notice that life cannot survive just by dreaming ...life is not a fantasy ...... In less than a week's time a he was returning back home .... and I had not seen him ..... I had to see him .. feel him to realize that he was for real... but that would not have been possible ...... I had to let him go .....let him go back to his own world, his own world of reality ..... where the truth was something else.... I was a fool to think that a fantasy could really come to life ....for once!!!
He is for real..... someone I always wanted to be with .... someone I was waiting for all my life ... someone who completed my mere existence ..... someone who was just so opposite but yet so similar ..... In a short span of time he meant the whole world to me..... my world .. for me he was my shield against struggle, my blanket against the cold times, my strength when I felt weak, my support when I felt was falling ... my reason for existence, he was my source of happiness, and was the definition of love ..... He came... He saw ... He conquered ... all along I was like a dead leaf ... merely living ... until the breeze full love touched her .. and the leaf came to life ... I floated with the breeze where ever it took me ... I followed it blindly ... He meant everything to me ... he is everything to me .... and all I had to offer in return was unconditional love .... that's all I had then..... and that's all I have even now .... One day the breeze stopped and the leaf fell in the middle of the road.... fooled by love .....thought that it came to life ... but never realized that dead things never come back to life .... the leaf had been dead all along ...... but the heart was still beating .... Here I am .... confused like the leaf, my heart still beats but I'm really not living .... my lips still touch my cheeks but I'm not smiling ... I still sleep but I'm not dreaming ..... I want to cry but tears refuse to come out ... I don't know why when I wake up my eyes are swollen and my face is dry... my heart still beats but the pulse is missing .........
I know it's not possible but I Still Believe ....
I had came back to my home after a long journey from home ... and was staying over my buddy's place for a week .... and on the second day of my stay at her place... we talked ... talked for the first time .... The initial talks were rather funny .. yet they were endless ... and I was given a nick name at the spot ... Chatter Box (...also fondly called by some of my other closed ones)...my very first conversation with him lasted for 6 hours .... we "chatted" while the whole world around us were happily engaged in their own fantasies .. and I had not in my wildest dreams would have ever imagined what I was up against .. :-) As much as I loved talking, so did he and there were no barriers, no boundaries to our conversations ... and a day turned into days ....and I never noticed that my favorite part of the day was the time when we talked.... I would eagerly wait for that time of the day so that we could talk .. Eventually I started realizing that what was happening to me was not very different from my fantasies .. I was falling in love again ...... I was smiling when no one around me was ...... I was humming when everyone was busy working ..... the mornings brought happiness and the evenings were eagerly awaited .. my colleagues started noticing the ever present mysterious smile on my face ... some also said that I was looking more prettier day by day and there was a unmatched glow on my face ... and so did my buddy !!! I loved listening to lovey dovey mushy mushy songs ... and was laughing out loud even on the silliest jokes ... I knew what was happening to me .... I knew where love was taking me ... and I felt it ... I felt different ... for the first time it felt real ... for the first time there was immense intensity in it .. it was gigantic, enormous!! .. It was what I've been waiting for all my life .. I wanted to fly in the deep sea ..... and swim like a free bird in the skies .... everyone tried stopping me from falling for it .. but I was madly in Love with LOVE .... for the first time something felt so real .... as real as the first drop of rain in the desert .... as real as the first drop of morning dew.... but what I ignored to notice was that my reality was short lived like the morning dew and the drop of rain in the desert ... in my madness I forgot to notice that I can never have him and will never come back, even though I felt we were soul mates, we can never be together... forgot to notice that life cannot survive just by dreaming ...life is not a fantasy ...... In less than a week's time a he was returning back home .... and I had not seen him ..... I had to see him .. feel him to realize that he was for real... but that would not have been possible ...... I had to let him go .....let him go back to his own world, his own world of reality ..... where the truth was something else.... I was a fool to think that a fantasy could really come to life ....for once!!!
He is for real..... someone I always wanted to be with .... someone I was waiting for all my life ... someone who completed my mere existence ..... someone who was just so opposite but yet so similar ..... In a short span of time he meant the whole world to me..... my world .. for me he was my shield against struggle, my blanket against the cold times, my strength when I felt weak, my support when I felt was falling ... my reason for existence, he was my source of happiness, and was the definition of love ..... He came... He saw ... He conquered ... all along I was like a dead leaf ... merely living ... until the breeze full love touched her .. and the leaf came to life ... I floated with the breeze where ever it took me ... I followed it blindly ... He meant everything to me ... he is everything to me .... and all I had to offer in return was unconditional love .... that's all I had then..... and that's all I have even now .... One day the breeze stopped and the leaf fell in the middle of the road.... fooled by love .....thought that it came to life ... but never realized that dead things never come back to life .... the leaf had been dead all along ...... but the heart was still beating .... Here I am .... confused like the leaf, my heart still beats but I'm really not living .... my lips still touch my cheeks but I'm not smiling ... I still sleep but I'm not dreaming ..... I want to cry but tears refuse to come out ... I don't know why when I wake up my eyes are swollen and my face is dry... my heart still beats but the pulse is missing .........
I know it's not possible but I Still Believe ....
